Thursday, August 21, 2014

My thoughts on Ferguson

I just read an article on Facebook about how the KKK is getting ready to enter Ferguson, Missouri. I read a similar article that the town officials in Ferguson weren't going to condone anything the KKK did. While I don't agree with the KKK's views, I don't see how officials could allow one group to stand up for their beliefs but not another. The article said they have come to help defend the shops that are owned by the white citizens of Ferguson and if the rioters and looters try to get by, they have come prepared with guns. I am not sure how extreme the KKK is in today's society but I kind of see it as a good thing that they are standing up for innocent people.
 For the most part, I have stayed silent on social media regarding my opinion on what is going on in Ferguson. I have liked some comments here and there and read different articles, but I haven't actually said anything. And you may not care what I have to say; in the grand-scheme of things my opinion doesn't really matter. But I like to think that I sort of represent the young adult Christian conservative group.
Now I have voiced my opinion in group settings. I've talked about this situation with family and friends. I've seen the news and read the articles. I like to know what's going on. 
Things are bad in Ferguson. I don't ever recall so much response for one incident. I have heard people say that all of this isn't just because of the Brown shooting, it's backlash for years of white on black police brutality.....
Here is my problem with that mentality, the police have a job to protect the community they also need to protect themselves, in order for them to be able to protect the community. When someone, no matter what color their skin is, becomes a risk to an officer or the community it is their job to get involved and make sure that person cannot hurt the officer, or anyone else. So when you live in a predominantly black community, you may have a lot of black citizens get arrested. That's not racism, that's just statistics. I have never seen or heard of any cop simply going up to someone, deciding they don't like them and shooting them to death. If you have and you can prove it to me that the cop was convicted of that crime then I will admit I was wrong. Cops won't even pull their gun out unless they since they are in immediate danger. They aren't going to shoot someone for no reason. This video is just one demonstration of police officers being in a very dangerous situation with a suspect. Warning: it is an actual shooting, may not be suitable for some viewers. The suspect appears to be surrendering and laying his weapon on the ground. What we can't see is the suspect actually has another gun in his pocket and he begins to pull it out. Luckily, the officer behind the suspect is able to see this and yells "GUN" which leads to shots being fired. 
I say all that to say, if you aren't literally right there in the middle of a situation, you do not know exactly what happened as it happened. You have to leave it to those involved who are in charge, which just happen to be the police, to do their jobs. When officers do something you like, such as  stopping a robbery or arresting a murderer, there is hardly praise from the community, because they are just doing their job. But when cops shoot a suspect, who may have been a robber or attempted to hurt or kill the cops... because he is your son or your neighbor, the family of the suspect and the community calls for some type of action (in this case they riot and loot in their own town)  to be taken on the cop; even though he was doing the same job!
If you don't know what happened because you weren't there then you don't get to to decide who was at fault, because you didn't see who did what or how they did it. So my opinion is, the cop made a judgment call, and for now I trust his judgment. The autopsies show that Brown was shot in the top of the head, which the pathologist said could only come about if he was lying down or charging the officer. It has also been reported that the officer had some severe injuries to his head. So whether Michael Brown was armed or not doesn't matter to a cop, because when they are pulling up on a suspect they don't know. He might have charged at that officer and could have pulled a weapon and injured him. They have to be prepared for anything.
In my opinion, there is a lot of ignorance in Ferguson right now. A lot of people are making this a "race" (ethnicity) issue. And there may be some police brutality going on, I know racism is still a very real part of today's society and I know officers aren't perfect and have the ability to make mistakes. But I believe a lot of people are wanting to act a certain way, they want to act "ghetto" and look "ghetto" and police officers who are trained to look for certain things may notice a group of black males that look like they are up to no good and stop and talk to them or something like that. If you don't want that stereotype cast upon yourself, rise above it. Stereotypes are based on truth. If there is a reason we look at black males with crooked hats and their pants at their ankles as up to no good it's usually because those are the ones we see on the news getting arrested for whatever. But it's the same for all ethnicities. Typically, if you look like you are up to no good then you probably are. How often do you see any body in the work place looking anything less than professional- nice, clean clothes, combed hair.... I just think if people were willing to take responsibility for their own actions instead of trying to blame everyone else for their problems (and I mean everyone not just Ferguson, Missouri residents) then this world would be a much better place. 

Friday, August 15, 2014

Catching Up

So.... it's definitely been almost a year since I last blogged, and that was only because I had to for school! oops.
When I started blogging I thought that this would be a good forum for me to speak freely, since I don't think many people would read it anyways, kind of like on online diary. I also thought I would like to start blogging now and keeping an account of the things that happen in my life so that as I get married and have children that I would have already had this as an established habit to write down the seemingly unimportant things that are actually what make life so great.
That was the idea.
But ya know, life happened. I thought about things that I would like to express my feelings on and I still have topics that I would like to "discuss", I just never got on my computer to write.
Anyways, a lot has happened over the past 10 months. Most seem insignificant because while a lot has changed, to the naked eye nothing has changed. I am still in school (my fourth year but not my senior year, yet!), I still live at home with my parents, and Seth and I are still together. So while mostly things are the same around here, there have been a lot of changes too! I feel like this year has been the year that I have done the most maturing. Although it may sound cliche, I really feel like I am truly starting to discover who I am. Everyday I grow more confident in my decision to enter the medical field as a nurse, although I am a little nervous about how everything is going to turn out with school. I feel like I am learning about myself constantly. I am learning about how much self control I have, which is a lot actually, what my character traits are, what I am good and bad at, and the type of people I need to have in my life to be the best person I can be. I am always trying to do something new to improve myself. Seth is probably so tired of me saying "I think I am going to try to do this" whatever this may be. We have joined a gym and are currently working on the best plan to cook at home so we are eating healthy meals and saving money. I started reading for pleasure. I never knew reading could be enjoyable! I am trying to help others more even if it goes unnoticed. I have also been making an effort to try and watch my attitude and words no matter what kind of mood I am in, which is truly #thestruggle.
Probably the most important thing that I have been learning this year is to really trust God. I am one that needs to know what's going on and when it's going to happen. So not knowing if I am going to school in the spring and if so where will I be going or when Seth and I will be able to support ourselves so that we don't have to rely so much on others anymore or why people are making what I consider to be extremely poor decisions over and over again despite seeking counsel from others; those are things I have learned that I can't control. I can't control time or another person. I can only control myself and live how I believe God calls me to live and try to enjoy every moment that has been given to me.
However, this is still a struggle for me. Sometimes I catch myself with a clenched jaw or grasping the steering wheel just a little too tight while I am thinking about something and just turning it over and over in my mind.
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Enough of the deep stuff.
I am just having a good time in my 20s.
I am ready to be done with school and move on with my life!
I really hope these next two years fly by!

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Life is a Highway

Life is like an ever winding road right now. There are hills where it seems like nothing could bring me down. Then, there are valleys, that seem like they never end and I just want to get out of these and go faster. There are also twists and turns that sometimes take me to unexpected places. No matter where the road takes me, I just keep going. Because what other choice do I have?
I just don't know if I am a good driver....

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Getting Caught Up

So I think it has been about two months since I was last on here. I kept getting ideas of things to write about when I was doing stuff and then would forget to actually write them down. And now it's October.
School is well under way, as is work, seen my family twice, and my dad is getting promoted this weekend.
As always schedules are very crazy. Saturday is really my only day when I don't have to do anything. Every other day I am either at school, church, or work. Or any combination of the three.
I'm not complaining though, I know it is a blessing to be busy!
I am really liking fall so far this year! I usually do not like it when the seasons change because then it is really cold in the mornings and evenings but super hot in the afternoon. But we have had some really beautiful weather so I am very thankful for that. I got to be outside practically all day on Saturday and didn't sweat! I love everything about fall. The colors, bonfires, festivals, extra cuddles because it's a little chilly, cute sweaters, ugly flannel, have I mentioned BOOTS? I just ordered a pair of really cute boots! Plus I even admit that watching football can be fun too.
I have to upload a lot of pictures so I can clear the memory on my phone in order to download IOS 7 and I will also be starting a new blog sometime probably this week. It will probably be really uninteresting though because it is for one of my classes.

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Busy Times Ahead!

The first week of the semester is almost over. I have about 3.5 hours left at work today, school this evening and then work tomorrow.
This semester might just be the busiest one yet!
I am taking five classes which equals 13 hours, because one is a lab class which is only 1 credit hour.
My classes are Anatomy & Physiology 2, Anthropology, History since 1890, and Gender & Women's Studies.
Not exactly the schedule I wanted. I originally was going to be taking German, but I guess because the class size was so small they completely cancelled the class. Didn't know they could do that... but ok.
It's going to be a very busy semester. I spent a lot of time this summer studying for anatomy, and now I have 3 other classes to study for as well. Two of them should be a breeze though. Seth and I are both working two jobs, lots of hours each week, and will be seeing less of each other. And I will continue to have little to no social life because I will be focusing on sleeping and studying. I am looking forward to the challenge.
And hopefully in the spring semester I will be applying to nursing school!

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Pet Peeve

One of my biggest pet peeves is when people don't like the situations they are in, don't do anything to fix it, then they complain about it.
I think everybody is guilty of doing this every once and a while, but there are others who just love to complain.
I know there are certain situations that can't really be helped, and nobody knows ever knows the whole story, so I shouldn't judge.
I still can't stand it when people don't take action when they have the ability to change their situation. It makes me have a total lack of sympathy for the person.
I think it's because I hate being uncomfortable in any situation, so I will do whatever it takes to make a situation right and be happy. I don't like being hurt so I let my body heal, I don't like being mad so I like to talk things out, I don't like having awful teachers so I search for the best ones, I don't like failing so I work hard at whatever I do. I just assume everyone else would do these things as well.... I don't think God wants us to have an unhappy or uncomfortable life either.
Maybe I am supposed to be learning some kind of lesson through these people, but right now I just feel irritated.

Friday, August 9, 2013

Will it ever end?

HOORAY! Summer school is finally over! I don't think I have ever been so diligent in my studying or wanted to succeed so badly as I did this summer. And I paid off. It took 8 weeks of studying for hours on end almost every day, but I passed both my classes with B's! I really am proud of myself.

So technically I am on summer break right now.... :/
The sad part is school started back for kids in GA so I am back to nannying. I have a feeling this gogogo thing won't be stopping anytime soon.
School for me starts back the 16th.

Nothing really new is going on. Summer school was the biggest thing I did this summer and now that its over a huge wait has been lifted off my shoulders. Now gotta get ready for fall classes to start.